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1) I am super duper at making soup. YUM!!! I love soup. It is my favorite food of the moment. I can't stomach onions.

2) I've been Not raped. You probably have been too. I read this at work and felt like crying and holding every woman in the world who has had this kind of experience.

3) The second, no third, night completely alone is a lot easier. Tonight I went and worked out for a less than an hour but it's more movement than I got all day.

4) As much as I love love love Seinfeld, the occasional racist depictions make me really pissed off. I used to be able to watch this through and through, but now I have to stop and frown sometimes. HAHAHA HOLY SHIT THIS IS SO FUNNY!!!

5) I love soup.

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1) It's past one and I'm awake alone in Irvine. I'm eaten too much crap that I have stored up. Yakisoba noodles for breakfast? Sure! Also, the TV that is on at night is always ways awesome. WHEN DID ROGER GROW SO BIG!!! WHY IS HE SO TALL. WHY IS HIS FACE SO FAT!!!! WHAT IS THIS NEW CRAPPY INTRO. They have nice voices though.

2) I feel like my life is so limboed out. Like, I second guess if I should do thing because I know I am leaving soon.

3) Mehhhhhhhhhheart. LOL!!!!!

4) I'm really trying to write something everyday, but it's hard to come up with something substantial when I am just floating along. Float float float.

5) I like mustard.

18

1) Yesterday over lunch we were talking about plans after college. I half-heartedly suggested to my Dad that after I graduate I should be allowed to go to cosmetology school and he said yes! So now I have this option in my life open that I never thought was possible, because it's very expensive and time consuming! Last night I was super excited and happy and thinking positively.

2) Then I started thinking that I am also very interested in research and at least a Masters in AAS. So suddenly, I do not know. Hmm. I have a good long while to think about it more though. Huzzah!!!

3) I might have glaucoma. Awesome so super awesome. Not really. Actually very sad. Bad genetics.

4) I have new lenses in my big glasses and everything is so super super super clear!!!

5) I am leaving in less than a month.

17

1) I finally have my computer back!!! Huzzah to the world!! It does not have Microsoft Word or Excel or Photoshop, but still HUZZAH to the world.

2) Uhh.. Merry Christmas!!

3) My fingers smell like Clams in Black Bean Sauce. So Saucy. MMMMMMMM.

4) There are so many fashion blogs out there. I am super lazy. It is okay okay okay.

5) I am almost done with my vest!!!!! I will put up a picture when I blog tomorrow as I have my camera back finally!! I didn't need it, but now I have it back I can fill this with the magic wonder of my life. Wooo.

17

1) Today I got a nice big free Black Angus lunch from work. Mmm. Delicious. I always order my steak medium-well done, because I'm afraid of contracting some scary disease. Ebola? Mad Cow? Does cooking the meat even kill the virus!? I'm not sure. So I can never eat my meat without my good friend A1. Mmmm.

2) This style blog shit is really hard. Today I tried to get dressed, spent like ten minutes on trying to find okay lighting, then was about to run out the door when I started to worry that I am being too performative and my style isn't being authentic, so I ran back and changed my coat into my pleather jacket that I just can't take off lately!

3) The Undeniable book is really being published. My stupid writing is in it! Okay, not stupid. My few letters of hilarious deep pining for my good friend-sister Dorosister. See!! Being authentic is good!! It gets you published!!!

4) I have collected the ornaments from the gift baskets that my office has recieved! I will craft amazing hair pieces for Dorosister who will wear them because she is such a classic loon bin. Her and my mama, but I want her to just stop wearing sweatpants!!

5) I like messing around on the ukulele. I know that it's easy to just find the chords and stuff online, but it rarely sounds quite right to me. So i just sit and mess around until I get it. Last night I figured out Beyonce's excellant version of Ave Maria and Neyo's So Sick. I am going to try and figure out either Listen or Regina Spector's version of Ave Maria. Just so I can be totally well rounded. That or Aural Pleasure, which has been stuck in my head for the past few days!

15

1) Like Rick Warren, I too eat in the homes of gays. Tra la la la la.

2) I'm in Irvine alone. It kind of sucks only I am in a pretty decent mood and will go home and make a delicious dinner for one, play Beyonce songs on my uke, and watch a Real Chance at Love. I really really really like it.

3) I guess my life's goal is to appear on reality TV. I'm thinking Real World, only I don't want to catch a(nother) (HAHA) STD. JUSTTTT KIDDING FOLKS. Serioulsy. I have never had a STD. I was just being clever. Anyways, I think my gimick could be that I am that Asian chick who is really into being politically correct!!!

4) I made a fashion blog. It is : http://loghunter.blogspot.com/ . Let's see how good I am at juggling two blogs when I can barely keep up with this one!!! It's hard to write something everyday!!! I feel like a fashion blog will be easier because I have to get dressed, just where will I find the time, the lighting, the skills of an unemployed minion to follow and photograph me at my greatest!!!??? I have terrible morning breath.

5) Mmmmm. Blackalicious. Also. Mmmmmm Cake. Both make me happy and I think really complement this rainy weather. Southern California is drowning in cold. I'm just rowing my boat and singing along. La la la.

14

1) christmas pagaents are so amazing when they are done by awesome Taiwanese people!!!! Tonight was the annual one put on by my parents church. This year I'm truly grateful for Chinese class because it has allowed me the chance to finally understand all the fabulos jokes!!!! Seriously folks. Their humor is a goldmine of hilarity!!!!

2) I got grades back yesterday and I did well. My stressful quarter filled with mega doubts abouty writing turned out to be okay!!!

3) my computer is pretty much almost fixed. Today I was able to look at my google reader on my own computer and it felt amazing!!!! Don't take your computer for granted folks. I had to use a enthernet cable and now I'm in my room using my dad's iPod again to blog. I really think technology is super awesome, but I'm pretty sure this convinience will be the end of us!!

4) fuck this high speed rail shit for real!! I know it's probably my priviledge for already living so dang close to home already, but I really see it as a big fat waste. I mean, when the mega bus existed, who honestly took it. Ughhh. This is a conversation for another time when I'm not just typing with my thumbs. I hope me talking about my typing is not too kanye west. Though seriously heartless is a good song.

5) I'm going to read more oscar Wilde. Signs are pointing me to, and I believe in those. When I tried to explain to my dad that this bracelet was cursed with sadness be did't believe me. But I truly believe that if I fixate my negativity onto an object and channel it in to strip it off, there also goes the bad. I also really believe in my dreams. If they were good enough for the prophts, they are good enough for me!!!!!

13

1) I'm really bad at showing love and affection in person. But I want everyone to know that I am super love and affection giving in the biggest heart I have.

2) I love Bai Ling. She inspires me to try and write poetically with broken English. I feel like the result is always most positive!

3) Dorosister came to stay with me last night and I fell asleep first!! Too much bed laying and talking with Kevin Kwong. Woot.

4) I am going to take my camera back so I can also turn this into a fashion blog!!!!

5) My work has internet again and I can finally read my Google Reader!! It's terrible and embarrassing how much I love e-stalking people with amazing style or who cook delicious looking food! Honestly, I have yet to meet someone who reads more blogs than me. Hello!! Are you out there?! Please come and make me not feel so freaky. Anyways.. I'm editing videos and satisfying my biggest craving. Well, second biggest.

12

1) I don't have internet still so this is from the warmth of Kevin Kwong's love warmth bed. It's toasty and love.

2) Today I was really frustrated and sad. I will try to be happier more and more.

3) GOOD BYE STUPID DRAMA THAT WEIGHS ME DOWN!!!!! Hello earth spirit where did you go? I will play my wooden flute and sing dance burlesque sexy time for you to return to me!!

4) I am growing sweet shrubbery. It is warm.

5) IT'S SO FUCKING COLD IN IRVINE AND THE WORLD IS ENDING LET'S ALL PRAY TO GOOD LORD SWEET MOTHER JESUS.

11

1) I'm at home right now recovering from six shots. I had to get vaccinated for a whole slew of awesome diseases. Why is science so dang fancy!!!!!

2) I am updating this thing using my dad's touch because my computer is so fantastically dated. I thought that I should let you know. Ducking spyware! Last night we tried to reformat my computer and we couldn't! I don't understand computers.

3) last night I also showed my mama my tattoos and she said they are beautiful. No secrets. None At all. That's pretty sweet.

4) I need to be around people more I think. I feel myself going crazy or something. Crazy sad? I'm not really sure but something not my usual fantastical self. So I'm knitting more and trying to be more dedicated to my ukulele. I'm also getting more involved with the UU church. I just want that filled sense again. Not really
Sure where I'm going with this...

5) I love blogs!!! Okay now I will shower!!!

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1) I am really starting to be scared about going to South Africa. It has the highest amount of reported rapes -- 194 out of every 1000 women. Part of me remains my positive self, grateful that there are this many women who are willing to report it. But the high number bothers me! What if it's the same ratio as other countries. What if the real number is 194 times four, or seven?

2) Staying positive, I really dig my group for Korean Women's Experience. People are so good. People are so kind.

3) I have not so high self esteem. It is finally being shaken. Eek.

4) I really truly think the internet is amazing. http://www.pushback.org/2008/12/09/if-the-times-cant-make-it-who-can/ . That's just too bad.

5) Ridic. End. http://jezebel.com/5104526/15-favorite-most-ridiculous-women

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1) The world is ending. I really believe.

2) I got an A- on my last paper in the class that I got a D on for the first paper!! Does this sentence even make sense? Is it coherent? Really? Great.

3) I have t get a bunch of shots this Sunday. Damn my student forgetful self!! I have to rush my health clearance!! Boooooooo.

4) Baby Junobi is the coolest kid ever! I baby sit this really awesome kid who is funny and sweet and hilarious. He trips a lot because he has new boots. Hilarious!

5) I like talking with good friends with good coffee and good understandings of politics, economy, and gender roles. Woot! Sprinkled with cookies!!!!!!!

8

1) Sweet Retainer of Glory!


2) Awesome yellow shirt of color!


3) Baggy Pants?!?! Yum Delish!


4) Study Study Sucky Chinese. Study Study Bad Bad Poetry!

5)UNO MAS! Happy Good Life!

7

1) I am going to be positive. I have less than a month and a half left, so I might as well make sure I'm happy! This means good friends, good food, good love.

2) I am so sleepy.

3) The headache still exists.

4) I love blogs.

5) MMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. Teddy Grahams.

6

1) Hipster Santa!


2) Going to go eat Pho in ten minutes!!!

3) Need to study!!!

4) My pounding headache is still here. It feels terrible!!! I just want it to go away!!!

5) Drove to church today but the service was at another church. This is the second week something like this (service was moved and I had no clue) happened. Driving home, I was so distracted that I missed the 405 and went too far up (North) the 55. When I realized that nothing looked familiar I exited only to end up on the 22. I drove for an hour today (in total). What a fucking waste in this depression. I'm mad at myself!

5

1)I have head congestion and a pounding headache is the result. Ughhh.

2) Room mates are so fucking hilarious. Truly, I am so so so super blessed. Today we went to Crossroads and I bought my mama and my sister sweet items. I also got a black pleather fashion pack. Woooooo. Room mates 4tw. Also. Good food. Yay democracy!!!

3) I really miss.. YEAH!!!!!! WOOO POSITIVITY. Dang sad heart.

4) On that note, Dumped is really freaking good. I skipped over the Jane Austen shit, but everything else is so fantastic. There is this story called "How to Date a Republican". I'll keep in mind that should the situation ever arise -- Don't. I've just come to accept that I can't be close friends with people who I know have the ideology and therefore the capacity to hate me or those I love. I mean seriously. Aren't we all human? Isn't love love? NO!!! Legal benefits for all!!!!!!

5) I really am quite loony. I love Dorosister. She is a loon who may (fingers crossed) sell the world Express (woot!!) or Crocs (double woot woot!!!). Sick.

4

1) Sup. Kevin drew this awesome anime picture of me after we were totally inspired.


2) I love delicious soup foods. Mmmmm.

3) I sent an email being critical because I feel that I have become really distant from a friend and this/her/the negativity in her life has seeped into other things and people that I really care about. Kind of cryptic. Kind of not. I just want things to be at peace, sweet thing.

4) Dorosister is ready to fight! "Kill a bitch. You know i can brea ka nose. Now that I have contacts i don't have yo be careful in a fight. i can just win". Got that -- bitches!

5) I am happy.

3

1) I am starting to feel sick. My throat is hurting. I gargled salt water cause my Mama told me to. It really works. I swear by it! I wish I had Emergen-C but that shit is expensive. Does anyone remember OPC3? That great Market America anti-sickness drink that fizzled. I never understood why people didn't like it so much. I adored it. I also licked by finger and stuck it in the bottle. Like Fun Dip!

2) Dorosister and I are no longer in disagreement/fight/not talking. She is such a funny jolly person. God Bless her for serious.

3) I talked to Wiser (my CEO boss) about South Africa and told him that they need me to finish the videos because I am an awesome editor. And then I asked him if I could keep my job while I'm gone. And he said Fa Sho to both things!!! Wooo hoooo. Haha. I'm just glad that I will not join the un-employment lined during this depression. And that I can buy awesome jackets from karmaloop.com. Hello! 20% off and free shipping? It's like the housing market for those who are un-touchables. For the pure bloods. For the Slytherin! (Whoa.. Firefox marks didn't as a mis-spelled word but Harry Potter transcends the internet!)

4) My nails are painted this dark grey glitter. It was the fake group project night market in my Chinese class today and this girl from my group sold lemonade and manicures. Awesome. Our group's theme was Christmas, so I gathered all this random shit from my apartment (pins, a mardi gras necklace, these fingerless purple and black striped goth gloves I found on the groud by the Science Library), and some Chinese crackers I'll probably pass on eating. I just wrapped them up with packing peanuts and bubble wrap. So cool. They were the first thing that sold. Also because I made a deal with this girl in my class.

5) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zeR3NSYcHk Need I say more? I love all the product placement. SOOOO GREAT!

2

1) I forgot yesterday.

2) I am sleepy.

3) When I am feeling down and listening to the Beyonce station and I realize I've been singing along to an Usher song without any mess ups -- I feel better.

4) Putting a lot of work into my writing (papers blah) is pretty shitty if my teachers (whose office hours I attend) don't recognize my effort. But they recognize. Mmm. I got some.

5) Woooooooot.

1

I'm sitting on this light green futon, sugared up from this new (to me) Trader Joe's cereal and pineapple juice, thinking about how good it is to be positive about life. This is my new blog-- Part III? The best edition for sure. My goal is to list out the next two months in three to five bullet points a day before I leave for South Africa. Hopefully I can stick to this one because I think that the discipline will be good for me. It was too hard to write poetry, short stories, or letters everyday. So here we go! Number One!

1) It's that time of the month where UCI's "Ring Mall" is filled with stalls peddling knock offs and other ephemeral junk. I stopped by the used book station and slowly went through book because I just happened to have an hour to kill. I found this awesome book! It's really funny and just what I need in this point of get-over-dom.


Whether you have been recently dumped and are still reeling from the shock, or whether you are nursing an older wound, you will find within these stories solace and truth. Two things all hearts, broken or mended, require.

2) I went to the financial aid meeting for studying abroad. I have this really limbo-feeling about going abroad. I'm really scared!! Everything that happens is a baby step towards a thirty hour flight and four and a half months of relegated independence. I bought this expensive plane ticket to stop by for nine hours in Paris so I could get away from being Grace Young pre-defined. Blah blah blah!!

3) Finals will be done in two weeks and I will be working, knitting, sewing, reading, and learning another hobby hopefully. When I was in high school I use to call my hobbies parlor tricks because I felt that they were all performative. I don't like performing, so my new hobby will be something that I can only do for myself. I'm already super talented at nail painting so I will need to think hard!

4) I am going straight back on the super fast express speed rail to high school awesomeness. When I was at Trader Joes, the cashier kid told me he liked my Misfits shirt and that he hadn't seen anyone in Irvine with one on. Instead of being a good conversationalist, I just mumbled that I wore this shirt to bed and I am lazy and that's why my groceries were all so stupid. Mmmmm. Groceries.

5) I have really good room mates. Tra and I went to eat fake food (not authentic Indian and Thai deliciousness) from Wholesome Choice, and all we did was laugh laugh laugh. Lately I have been feeling super dry (proof in my excellent conversation skills) so it was really good to feel awake and alive again.

Okay. Soo my life is awesome.